
Something has been bothering me since my post regarding snagging salmon. It is more than just the controversy over whether or not a fish should be snagged. Something is snagging my heart. I may loose a few readers after this and have debated whether or not this is even the platform for these ramblings. But they are my ramblings. My thoughts. This is who I am.
So, please bear with me as I take a minor detour from the hunting theme of this blog and give you a glimpse into my soul. A glimpse into one of my heart cries.
I've been married for 10 plus years and have yet to have children. This is where the computer monitor becomes a bit blurry as tears begin to build. I long to have children. So far, for whatever reason my womb is empty. However, one thing I'm sure of - the longing for a child has grown deeper. For this reason I believe God is up to something. What it is, I'm not sure. There are still doctor visits to go through with, which I keep procrastinating on for some reason. Last time I went, they said my thyroid was off and wanted to give me drugs. I'm just not sure about all of that yet.
One thing I know is there are many children out there that need a good home. Children longing for someone to call Mommy and Daddy. The husband and I have had several conversations over whether or not adoption is an option for us. Whatever door that opens, I want to be ready to walk through it. So we are having the conversation, although we are not ready to commit to it quite yet. This weekend is
Orphan Care Sunday - A little conviction in my heart is going on.
So, you may be asking..."what in the world does this have to do with snagging salmon?" Given this personal longing for children, what tore me up on way home from work the other day as I was thinking on all of this was one simple thought: Our nation is literally allowing us women to snag the life of our children from our wombs. How can this be when there are hearts like mine LONGING for children? We turn a blind eye and call it a choice. How can we get so worked up about whether or not it is right to "catch" a fish via a snell hook vs a snagging hook, yet allow are children to be ripped from their first breath? I think we have our priorities mixed up a bit. I think we've been deceived under the label of choice. The legality of something does not always make it right. So, my heart grieves for women who have made this choice.
The question haunting my heart - if I can feel so strongly about choice vs life options, I must be willing to do something about those who are given the chance at life and then left to be abandoned for whatever reason. Ultimately, the child deserves life. I believe it is their choice to live. To run. To play. Now, it is my choice on how I help to solve this problem. My heart weeps for the orphan. My heart wants to jump out of my chest and tell them I will care for you. Bring me the unwanted. So, in a small way this is me speaking out for the ones that do not yet have a voice. And for those that have been given their voice and simply want a Mommy and Daddy, those faces are calling to me... I know there is a longing that needs to be filled.
"They need me. I need them more."
What a crazy crazy world we live in.
P.s. I'm done snagging salmon.